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Why is it alright to play with a pig's heart but not with a human's?

Ha, yes, that is some word play I used for the title. Go me! But seriously, I don't think I've ever been so close to throwing up as I was today. Yes, Friday, the horrid day of bio lab. Today I went in and I saw a stack of the metal trays in the back and I was so close to walking back out. Those stupid trays only mean one thing- we're going to dissect something. And how right I was! We were talking about the heart today, kind of stupid how we can do an entire lab on the heart. But we had to cut open and look at pig hearts. When my group brought it over to where I was I started hacking. I didn't touch it, as I never do with anything we do in there, and stayed at least a foot and a half away from it the entire time. Most of the time I didn't even look at it, because just looking at it made my already unsettled stomach extremely queasy. It was so bad, I could smell it even after I left. I swear the stench was in my hair and clothes, so right after I got back from other class of the day, mythology, I jumped in the shower, washed my hair like crazy and scrubbed like it was nobody's business. I wanted anything and everything of that to be off of me. And then because I didn't plan on putting those clothes back on and didn't want to waste other clothing I put on my pajamas. I even got fresh pajamas because I guess I felt as if I couldn't wear the ones I've been wearing. So I've been in my pajamas since 1:30 and since I have no life I'm in for the day/night/whatever. Since I'm running low on lunch food I just had a bag of chips for lunch, and I'll probably have soup for dinner. I was considering going over to Subway right after I got back to the dorm and get a foot long to eat for a couple days since it's fairly cheap and I only have 8 bucks in cash to last me the next week. However, I couldn't bear being in the clothes that I had worn to lab any longer than I already had, so I get soup. Woo hoo. Last night I had canned spaghetti, it was alright. I'd order a pizza with my debit card but I don't like using it too often. Although a pizza can easily last me 3 or 4 days, eating it for lunch and dinner. I don't think I'll have to worry about dinner Monday because I should have a pre-pharm meeting and they always have food for us there.

Freaky thing happened today, and I am going to blame the wind, because it's still here!! I was watching something on Youtube, waiting for my anime in another tab to load when the power suddenly went out. It wasn't even out for 5 seconds, but it was strange. And because the wind is stronger than it's been the past couple days, and because I'm sick and tired of it, I blame it. Curse you wind!!

Had an interesting-ish conversation with my grandma today. We were talking about family being close by and I was pointing out that I was in Tucson which is in state, at least for now. I still have a couple years to think about if I want to go out of state for pharmacy school, and if I even get accepted into one out of state. There really wouldn't be any problem with getting accepted to the one here, I think right now it's ranked number 8 nationally which is pretty good. Side tracking aside, she for some reason said Wyoming. And I was like 'what would I possibly do in Wyoming?' She then informed me that she would like to live there, and I told her that if she moved to Wyoming I certainly wouldn't visit her. There's nothing there. There's hardly any people there. The population of Wyoming isn't even large enough for them to have an electoral vote, they have a pity vote. I guess maybe if you like cheese or something you'd move there? Wyoming in my book of reasons not to live there isn't like California or Texas...or Florida...or pretty much any of the southern states, but it's in it. Then we got into a bunch of random short topics, like Easter being like Christmas to her, and I pointed out that there's really only one similarity between the two. And she told me how my other grandmother was telling her her crackpot idea that we don't go to school on Friday because it's Good Friday. Yeah, don't know where that came from, I think that would be a bit of an issue if that were the case. Last time I checked there are a lot of religions that don't celebrate Easter, and kids of those religions go to public schools. Then I went on a bit of a rant about how a cross doesn't necessarily signify Catholicism, because I made a joke about sending my cousin to Catholic school because she's a little brat and public school doesn't seem to work for her, and then there was a bit in between that then she told me how the brat's mother doesn't even want her to wear a cross. Thus why I went on the rant. Actually, pretty much every topic we hit when we were talking I went on a rant about. We were talking about Wyoming for like five minutes because I could not see her reasoning for wanting to live there, then I went on some really random rant about the Easter thing. I should make videos of me ranting about random things which really aren't so random to me and post them on Youtube. Then everyone could see what an insane person I am.

Oh yeah, roommate and her boyfriend got in another fight today. If he treats her so badly I don't see why she doesn't just break up with him, for like good. I think I'm going to start using my posts as a counter for how many times they fight and break up and such.

I really don't know what to think of today. On one hand, bio lab. On the other, I'm freaking out like a fangirl because of next THURSDAY. -points to post below-.

Posted on Apr 03 2009 by Amber + 2 Comments

SQUEEEE!!!

http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/news/2009-04-03/funimation-to-stream-2009-fullmetal-alchemist-on-april-9

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! I don't care if it's subbed (because this is one anime I actually prefer the dub a bit more) because I'm going to get the new series!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Although I kind of feel that if/when they get to the Briggs portion the Japanese VA will in the end be a better Olivier. I just don't see any English VA being able to voice her as I picture. Shame all the good characters strictly from the manga don't come in until later.

-fangirl scream-

Posted on Apr 03 2009 by Amber + 1 Comments

Wind, wind, get the hell out of here

Not really plotting evil, just evil-ish icon

I'm so sick of this wind!! Ever since I got back from spring break, I think it was even going on before spring break. The wind has not ceased for a day. Maybe in the mornings sometimes it'll be nice, but by afternoon the damn wind is blowing madly strong. The biggest and most annoying thing about it is that it doesn't matter which way I'm riding my bike, the stupid wind seems to shift direction so that it is going against me. The stupid stuff isn't even bringing any clouds in! If it was bringing in clouds, nice dark grey rainy gloom clouds then I'd be able to cut the wind a break, but it isn't. It isn't even bringing in boring white puffy clouds. Nothing at all, just blowing dust and a bunch of other crap around, and it's getting annoying.

I wish I could say I was done for today, which I should be able to, except I have to be up to the main library at six tonight, because my group for the cactus lab for bio needs to finish our report due Friday. I don't see why we can't meet earlier, I can only stay for around 40 minutes meeting that late because I need to get back to the dorm before it gets dark. My dorm is extremely far our from everything else, it kind of scares me to even be coming back when it's nearly nightfall, because there's nobody around and the fastest way is going down the side streets. This entire week sucks, I had to meet up yesterday for it and have to today, and then tomorrow I have to meet with my other group for bio lab to work on our semester proposal. Honestly, I don't see why there has to be so much out of class meeting up. Last semester for 181 we only had to meet up once outside of lab. And I have a test in biology tomorrow, I really need to study for that tonight. Oddly enough I did start studying more than the night before, I did over the weekend. Crazy.

I felt kind of bad earlier. Although I told her not to because it would be pointless to drive the two hours just for that, my mom drove down to bring me some ink for my printer because I was out. I paid thirty four dollars for ink at the bookstore, and it was the wrong kind. I should have skipped my lecture today and had lunch with her or something, instead of her having to drive right away back up. But now I have ink, and I can print out my notes. I don't know why I have to have two classes that use so much yellow in their notes. I don't know if I ever used it last semester.

My roommate's boyfriend is so annoying. Apparently they're going to be living together this summer (I can just see how that'll turn out) and she found a place that's close to campus and fairly cheap. But she's been on the phone with him for awhile because he was complaining that the place didn't have AC but a swamp cooler. Annoying, just annoying.

I have been having some sleeping problems lately apparently, the way I sleep. I know I move around a lot when I sleep, anyone who has ever seen me sleep has told me I do. When I'm trying to fall asleep I lay on my left side because I like to hug or lay partially on my body pillow, which I keep on that side because that's the side against the wall and it it wasn't there then there would be some huge gap because the bed is funky. There's no way I would stay in that exact position all night, but when I've woken up the last few mornings I've been on that side, and thus killing my shoulder. I have to wiggle out of bed kind of because I have temporary loss of the use of my left shoulder, which means temporary loss of use of my left arm. It hurts like crazy. Although not as bad as when my neck gets involved in the pain too.
I need to finish my Pew Wei now, then study a bit before I have to get going to meet my group for stupid lab. What fun, I bet it's going to windy then as well.

Posted on Apr 01 2009 by Amber + 1 Comments

If I gave into desire I'd be over 200 pounds

That title may be a bit over dramatic, but still. I've been so hungry today. I got up this morning, poured some cereal, ran up to the laundry room to throw my laundry in then came back and ate it. A mere hour later, if it was even an hour, I was hungry again, so I ate some fruit gummy snacks. Feeling the hunger pangs coming right before I went to class I decided to try and ignore them since I only had one class today and it was going to be shorter than normal so I'd eat after. When I got back I ate lunch, a Velveeta and cheese cup (similar to the Easy Mac cups). But then I was hungry maybe like a half hour later. I didn't eat anything, but then around 2:30 I had some Auntie Anne's honey flavored bunny crackers, they were organic and didn't have too many calories so that was fine. Now it's 3:15ish and I'm hungry again. I want to wait for dinner time to eat anything else, although if I can't stand it I guess I can eat the last green apple I have. Maybe I should have eaten that in the first place. Yesterday I had one and it was a lot bigger than I expected, so I just called that my lunch since I was pretty full. I finished off the meals my grandpa made for me last night, so I guess tonight I'll have soup. I could order a pizza or sub, or walk over to Boston Market or Subway, but I don't want to. I just got into my pajama pants a bit ago and don't want to get out of them. I swear I need to get guy pants or something, I hate how they make female pants so tight. It's really only two pairs of my pants that are like that, but it's still annoying. I only have one pair of pants that are actually the right size for me, the rest are a size too big, since apparently early in the year I went down a size. But I either get looser legs but a very loose waist or tight legs and correct fitting waist.

Grr, hunger won't stop bothering me. Mondays are so nice. I have one fifty minute class at noon. Today it wasn't even fifty minutes, more like fifteen because we had a quiz and the quizzes are so easy. If we could leave right after we finish the quiz I'd probably be done in five but the first quiz we had created a lot of chaos. When you have 600+ people taking a quiz, and probably around half finishing really quickly and then everyone else steadily following it's a bit hectic, so the professor waits until everyone is finished and has us pass them down the rows. Then we can leave. I don't know if I was even gone for an hour today from the dorm, maybe exactly an hour. I decided to ride my bike today which was rather stupid, because my knee isn't up to it yet. It was hurting so badly when I was pedaling. I now have one band-aid on it instead of two, and there isn't a bunch of nasty looking stuff on the band-aid when I took it off.

I was so bored last night. I was very tempted to go to bed a bit after 9 because I couldn't think of anything to do. So I got out my camera and started making random videos of my stuff and commenting on it. I ended up erasing all of them, even though I wanted to put something on Youtube because my channel has pretty much nothing. I have three videos on there, one has 2 views, one has 8, and one has 167 or something like that. I doubt anyone would watch something I put on there, but I'd still want to so my channel wouldn't look so crappy. Speaking of Youtube, I got on yesterday afternoon, after forcing myself to study for a few hours straight, to find a new episode of SMA on!! There are so many pointless filler episodes in the series, but they make it hilarious.

Dang, now I'm slightly tired all of the sudden, and hungry. Need to wait at least another hour before I eat dinner, preferably an hour and a half.

Edit: I just thought of a couple things I didn't put in earlier, one I couldn't. First I found in the FMA livejournal community that Australia and NZ will be the first western countries, even though they aren't really western, to see the new FMA series. I checked out the full article on ANN. So sucks.

Another thing that kind of sucks is when I was watching Jeopardy today. Starting today if you go to the site and put in the Final Jeopardy then you have a chance to be one of 25 people who get to go on a trip to the Galapagos Islands. Unfortunately if I entered I would miss an entire week of school next year, which I can't do, especially with labs that can only be made up the same week. So I'm going to see if anyone in my family feels like trying to win, I'll give them the final jeopardy each day since I seem to watch it. Before I never watched it, I've started getting really into it. I'd also like to maybe try out to be on the show, , maybe during a college special, since I always seem to know quite a few of the answer. But I'd probably get beaten out by a bunch of ivy league people or some other prestigious colleges.

Posted on Mar 30 2009 by Amber + 0 Comments

Was today wasted or time well spent?

I really really didn't do much today that most would consider good time management. But because I was so driven I decided to watch Sailor Moon all day, and I finished it! Yes, I have gotten through all 200 episodes!! I finished the last season in technically less than a day. Then because I felt like going on and wanting to be more Sailor Moon savvy than anyone who I know, even though I already am since I've seen all 5 seasons, all 200 episodes, in the original Japanese and not the horrible dub, I then decided to watch a couple shorts. So I watched Ami's First Love and Sailor Moon Special Pretty Soldier-Make Up! Sailor Soldiers. There's another one that has various shorts, but I was going to wait until next weekend to watch that since it's like 40 minutes long, and then watch the three movies next weekend as well. But now that I see that SNL is the Alec Baldwin Jonas Brothers rerun I'm going to watch the other short, because the Jonas Brothers ruined SNL the week they were on beyond repair.

Tomorrow I'm going to kick my ass to make sure I study and not screw around on the computer, because that's what I normally do. There's a lot more material to study for biology this upcoming test, and it's plants, which I really don't like. I need to get a B on the test, at least. Last test I got a 77, but since there was some extra credit the first professor gave because so many people would leave halfway into class when he gave us a break I have extra points that would raise me up to a B. It would be great if I could get a B for the overall grade in the class, it'll help my GPA out. Wow, I really haven't done that much today, because I can think of nothing else to write. Except it's so freakin annoying how my roommate and her boyfriend always call each other baby. She came in this morning after just getting back from spending the night with him at the frat house and she's on the phone as she walks in. I swear she said baby at least 7 times, it was so annoying.

Posted on Mar 28 2009 by Amber + 1 Comments

If today wasn't just another great day

Well wasn't today fun? Didn't do much, but how great it was. First my lab partner wanted to meet early so we could go over our presentation and so he sent me a text around 6:30, which is a minimum of a half hour earlier than I get up. I wanted a bagel for breakfast and I have, or should say had, three, but I pulled them out today and all of them were moldy. Not even a week old and they were moldy. So I had to have Pop-Tarts. Then when I left this morning, which by the way it was so much fun trying to walk down the stairs of the dorm with my knee, then down the stairs for the underpass, I didn't realize how cold it was so I was freezing my butt off the entire time I was walking to lab, which took me an extra 5 or so minutes because I was having issues walking without bending my injured knee too much. I forgot to add how I forgot that my knee was hurt and how I tried to sit on it at my desk. That ended up with me jumping up swearing a bit from the pain. At lab I noticed there was a bit of moistness coming through my pants at the knee, and I was worried that it was maybe pus or something which then caused me to worry it was infected which didn't really make sense to me because right when I got back to the dorm I washed it. I have no clue what the hell it was, because tonight when I checked it I didn't see or feel anything. I finally found some of the Neosporin like stuff in my first aid kit, so I washed it again then put some of that on it and put fresh band-aid's on it.

I was actually kind of hoping that lab would last the full three hours today so that it would get out at 11 and that way I could just walk to my next class and wait for about an hour in the hall instead of having to walk back to the dorm and then having to walk all the way back to the main part of campus. Ended up getting out a bit after ten, and since there's nothing I can think of I could do on campus for that long I walked slowly back to the dorm, which somehow took me almost ten extra minutes. I got to rest for about twenty minutes then had to go to mythology. I was seriously considering skipping because I didn't want to have to try to walk again. But I went because I'm a good student, unlike about 400 or so of the people in the class, because I'm pretty sure that's about how many didn't show up today. I doubt there were even 200 there today. I really wanted a smoothie after class but I believe it was a mixture of the extreme wind that had come when I had been in class and my knee that caused me to just forget it. So I came back to the dorm and quickly put on my pajama bottoms because for some reason my jeans are tight from my knee down. I really don't get how they make female clothing, it doesn't work too well for me, especially with my calves. I'd assume it's from so many years of karate, but I have developed huge calves that are pretty much all muscle. It's probably a good thing I'm not doing karate right now, I wouldn't be able to use my left leg or do anything that required to functioning legs.

But some good news! Yes, there is good news. During one of her phone calls to me today my mom informed me that my cat tripped my dad. I was laughing hysterically. And it also turns out Rosco likes marshmallows. My mom said she was just letting him smell it because he's curious but he started eating it. That cat eats almost anything. Another small bit of good news, I have made it! Yes, I am finally onto Sailor Moon Sailor Stars!! I have nearly finished my task of all 200 episodes, and if I can find them subbed I'll try to watch the three movies as well. I'm starting to see why they didn't dub this season, I don't think there's any way you could make it child appropriate. Haruka and Michiru were in the first few episodes, not sure if they'll be in more, but that implied lesbian relationship they had in S is definitely more noticeable now. Then there's the Starlight Scouts who are male pop idols who tranform into females? There's no way they could change that, they wouldn't be able to pull off just making them female for the dub like they did with Zoicite. I'm only through around ten episodes, but the fact they have tons of female fans and pretty much only female fans would make that difficult. Sailor Iron Mouse is so cute though, it's a shame she's a bad guy. But Chibiusa and Mamoru are gone. Could care less about Chibiusa, she needed to get back to the 30th century, but I think it's going to be interesting to see how Usagi does without Mamoru to come to her aid as Tuxedo Mask. Oh, and her new outfit is so ugly. It's looks like her sleeves are made of hard pink plastic, and an orange and yellow shirt to go with that? Plus the wings, yeah....no. I did notice something interesting though, mostly because of something I watched on Youtube. Pluto really is the only diversity in that show, she's actually significantly darker than the other senshi.

I wish I could just try to get through it all this weekend, but I need to study and do a formal lab report and much much more! I need to get through episode 175 then I'm off to bed.

Posted on Mar 27 2009 by Amber + 2 Comments

And it keeps getting worse...

Karma hates me. I don't know what I did to make this day suck so much. It's not even noon yet, I've haven't even been up for four hours or out for three hours. First it starts out with the math test. Everything finally clicked for me the Thursday before break when he was explaining everything, and I made sure to study anything that I wasn't completely sure of. I memorized and made sure I knew how to do all the different derivative rules. But no, no, day can't go my way. I knew practically nothing on the test. Still, I worked everything out the way I thought it was supposed to be, and I should get partial credit on almost all of them since I'm pretty sure I set them up correctly initially, even if I did the work wrong. I really needed to pass this test, but I'm not sure if I did. If I did it was only a D probably, and that won't help me at all.

But it only gets better!! I was walking back from the stupid test, feeling rather blah and today, of all days, I hit the raised part of the sidewalk and trip. My knee was killing me the rest of the way to the dorm. What I find so funny about it is that I always take that way back to the dorm, yet I've never hit the raised part of the sidewalk before. Go figure it happens today of all day. Well, when I got back to the dorm turns out I had ripped my pants at the knee and I had scraped skin off. Apparently not enough to bleed, but you could tell if a bit more would have come off then it would have been, because it's completely red like there's only a layer or two of skin cells holding that blood in. So now I'm out a pair of pants, and I only have seven pairs, and I had to change them so now I don't have enough to get through Monday so I can do laundry since the laundry room is completely abandoned on weekdays and will isntead have to fight to get a freaking washer and dryer over the weekend.

Wait, there's more!! I really didn't think that the day could get worse, but I was wrong again!! I was printing out my notes for biology, and my yellow ink decides to run out of me. So now I have pages 1,3,5,6 and 7, even though 7 only has one pointless slide on it, and am missing 2 and 4. I tried to print them out without color, but the stupid printer doesn't feel like cooperating with me.

So yeah, it isn't even noon yet, all I did today was go to a math test, but my day has sucked so badly. I'm not even going to bother to ask if it can get any worse, because I'm going to screw myself over by doing so and life is going to screw me over and make something happen. So yeah, today can get worse, it will get worse. My entire day is going to suck big time.

And on a minor note, the stupid sauce in my lunch has meat in it. I didn't want any stupid meat, but no, there just has to be meat in it. And now I must scarf down whatever is left of my stupid lunch and get going to chemistry, then to biology, then I have to get with my partner for lab to work on our sex paper thing which is due tomorrow, and go figure we get to go first.

I wish I had a punching bag, I need to get frustrations out.

Posted on Mar 26 2009 by Amber + 1 Comments

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